Sunday, August 15, 2010

Changing

When I walked out my door this is what I saw.

A sign of the changing season... already. But also a reminder of how much things are changing around here. So many things on the horizon but all up in the air. Praying that when the dust settles, so will our nerves.

Change brings growth I know, but sometimes it is soo uncomfortable too. Yuck.

One of the changes I have been thinking about is that I love photography... a lot- but not all aspects. I am going to try to move in the direction that makes me feel creative (which is weird for me to say about myself) and happy. Just saying it makes me happy.

I have been taking a trip down memory lane lately with all my fave bands from the High School days. I still love them!! Music has always been something that connects me. Connects me to my feelings, thoughts and memories. I don't know how I survived (like that I am still alive...) my teenage years. I was insane. CRAZY insane. My parents will be so happy to see me acknowledge that publicly- and I don't know how they made it either. Every wrinkle, grey hair, lost hair, heart problem or memory loss that they will ever have has my name on it. I am sorry. I kind of laugh a little about some things because it is so unbelievable. I guess I was born to show them what they were made of. And I can tell you too- solid steel thank goodness.

Thinking of back then- first I pray that all my kids will be prefect like my sisters. (Hey- it's in the genes somewhere, right??) Also- I realize that through the changes that I have had in my life, I- WE have created such a great life. I am not sorry about that. And I am not sorry for the things that I have learned along the way. I needed every lesson I have learned. I know I am rambling, and it's almost 2am, but suffice it to say, I am ready- come what may.

... and long live 80's alternative bands. :)

4 comments:

Sunny said...

Oh man! My one chance for a Holly original and I missed it....Oh well. I'll just have to look at the pictures you take of my boys when we're out there. Can I reserve the right to send pictures to you to mess with? Oh and it has to be said for anyone out there who actually believes you...Your sisters weren't perfect. At least this one wasn't. Love you Holly and love this post...especially today.

Salem said...

Today I went to the grocery store with my two kids, the 7 month old I babysit...and my very noticeable pregnant belly. Let's just say people look at me like I am crazy insane. Maybe that's why we're friends. :)

Dad said...

Yea, for the photography direction; Yea! We, your parents, got to this point and learned so much in the process (albeit with some divine intervention to help us); and YEA!! you came with the character sufficient to come to thru and become the great person you are (that your sisters are too- coming with the same character traits). BTW, there is no perfection in any family!!

Pam said...

Amen to your Dad's comments...